Every year of my life I care less and less to be here. I am befuddled as to how that is possible with the amount of suicide attempts and hospitalizations I’ve had. Life seemed half baked from the beginning and as it goes on the amount of effort steadily decreases. Back to never eating so hopefully I die passively but it never works. I’m only posting on here because I can’t find anything to write with and depression eats me alive. Been so fucking done for so long…. Please end.